Not Enough Words - Poem from "The Silent Darkness" by Lisa M. Bello

I love you
never explains
what I feel.

Every word
in the dictionary
Could never explain the truth.

My feeling so deep
tears a hole through my soul
like a dagger from the devil.

I am a cripple
without your arms
to help me.

This daily routine
Some call life,
Wretched without you here.

I stumble
trying to walk,

I stutter
trying to speak,

Great feat
to lay my head
to rest.

Without you
my bed
empty and cold,

Its dwarf size
multiplied
by millions.

I curl up
to compensate you,
Even though body lacking.

Your voice
The sound in a fantasy story
And I'm the child.

My thoughts
rarely stray from you,
even when they should.

My mind
a virtual playground
Where I just want you to play.

No one else allowed.
when my thoughts hurt me.

Pathetic
for loving so deeply.

My mind
confusing
creates feelings of your neglect.

So untrue.
Reality giving me nothing to think in such way.
Just mind overactive.

Sometimes
keep you in my pocket
for always.

My best friend
like a pet
to a child.

Hanging
on a cliff
when you say goodbye.

I want to when I am without you.
But I don't.
It's the easy way out.

And it would take every paper in the world
To type out the truth and what I feel.
But I'd do it if you promise to read every word.